I’m officially jobless like a week ago.

Some don’t know that yet but its okay, they will know it sooner or later if we’re fated to meet and talk about that. It’s not that interesting though. I mean, the previous working life. So far I have no intention of going back to design yet, which would mean the portfolio I did some months ago is still in my ‘Pending‘ folder.

Why quit design? Was that because of my previous employment? Well, I would say, not entirely. It’s more of a change in mindset and I just think I’m too practical and realistic to be in the creative line. Great designers are usually those ‘crazy’ ones. Nothing wrong with being a designer, if you have strong passion for it, then it will be a good choice. For me, it’s just time to stop thinking that it’s a pity to quit something you studied for 3 years and worked for 2 years. I don’t regret taking up the design course because I’ve learnt the very technical skills of it and it’s still useful even if I stop design as a career. As for previous employment, 50-50, good and bad.

When I was trying to decide if I should change field, I actually went back NYP to look for Ms Amy, the best lecturer (to me) in my polytechnic days (because all modules she taught, I got As and distinctions that’s why I say she is good XD … and fierce). That added on to more confusion. Tell you why. I had a ‘talk’ with my previous employer before I left the company, he told me this:”you’re not very suitable for local creative scene, your strength is illustration and I think you should focus on illustration. You know, selling illustrations etc.” Then I remembered, he told me this before too after a year of employment:” your weakness is in your layout, you must improve on your layout“. So I showed Ms Amy my portfolio during my one month notice period to see if she could offer me some advice. She said, “your strength is in layout and your weakness is in your illustration.” Ah-ha. It’s the complete opposite. Who should I believe and who do you think I will believe?

Apparently to me, there is no good or bad design. It’s just a matter of whether you like it or not. If you don’t, that is a bad design. And that bad design, may appear to be fantastic to some others. It’s a personal preference thing. I’m sick of people telling me, he/she dislike/like which design I did while some others say the opposite. I’m often left confused to whether what I did was right or wrong and that made me feel less. Now, I’m out. Out of that dilemma, out of design. If I feel the strong urge to go back to design, maybe I would.

The past week, I’ve been going out with some friends, celebrated xiaode’s birthday, mugged in library with Janey and watched 下一站，幸福。I don’t usually watch Taiwan dramas because I feel that it’s over exaggerating and stupid, unless the lead is someone I admire. For 下一站，幸福 , I’ve heard so much about it but I still hesitated in watching till yesterday while I was switching tv channels, it was airing the episode 14 of the drama. I thought, okay la… see nice or not for a while before I switch to another channel. Then, 哪里知道that little boy 小小彬so cute! LOL. I mean, he don’t look typically cute but his acting in the show was so adorable. Just around 30 mins of watching, I cried with him because he was running after a car shouting for his father, and I don’t even know why. -.-” I watched that whole episode and feel that I should carry on the story to know the ending, so I youtubed it. Now I’ve finished the drama! I mean from Episode 14 till the last episode. I don’t intend to start from Episode 1 because it’s gonna take time and the drama, though is pretty good but quite draggy.

Weather’s warm and humid recently (random), but it really is!!!

That’s all for today.

Also, I’ve grown to love 体会and daydreamer which 330 sang in 330. I’m gonna find some time to look for these songs.

and from south africa, Parlotones.

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