A friend called to ask me help her find a female part-timer for a event/roadshow the day before the event. Alright, i send smses around and another friend got back to me, expressing her sister’s interest in the job. Nice, i thought everything would be fine.
Late night, friend told me her sister can’t make it because her elder sis is against the idea. She’s very sorry for the trouble and apologized to me. I wasn’t angry with her, but i was worried what if my friend can’t find a replacement in time? I told friend about it and upon hearing the news, she was pissed and ranting about how can someone be so irresponsible. I apologized to her and told her I will try to help her find replacement again. She say okay, we’ll keep each other informed.
So I sent dozens of smses around, ringing up some friends. Some replied, and i’m thankful for that. However, almost all can’t make it. Too last minute or don’t have white polo tee. Nice janey even asked her sister to ask around. Her sis called up her friends and her friend’s friends. That was near 1a.m. Finally, one was interested and say if she could get the pay on the spot upon completing the work, then she’s alright with it. Nice. I was relieved for a while and i tried to ring my friend back and inform her of the availability.
Guess what. This friend, never picked up my calls, neither did she reply my smses. Gone in the air somehow, suddenly. How am i supposed to feel? I’m doing you a favor because i think of you as someone who’s nice and responsible. You made me waste my time, money and even felt so guilty when that sis can’t make it suddenly. I’m so pissed that I told Jane and her sis to forget the whole thing and get to sleep. I really do appreciate what they did, not forgetting wenhao and those who replied too.
To her:
I will never help you find part-timers ever again, unless you learn how to appreciate others’ help.
Personal note:
Not everyone is worth helping, be selective.
Alright, anger aside. Past week wasn’t so nice, mainly because I didn’t catch enough sleep. Weds night, cousin came over to borrow my macbook to do her homework in iMovie. She… Wasn’t someone of normal frequency and behavior so i had a hard time communicating with her… Fearing that i might hurt her emotions or caused her to be stressful.
Halfway doing her work, she would jump onto my bed and start rolling on it. For someone, who’s a cleanliness freak, I almost cut my throat. My bed is on my top no-touch list. She completely don’t know what she was doing and yet can’t bring herself to do it… She was taking random video of my fan, my guitar etc… And she left around 3a.m. I was very sleepy then considering that usually I sleep at 11p.m and wake at 6+a.m. So after she left, I had to change my bedsheets if not I wouldn’t be able to sleep (peacefully), and yes, I went to took a bath again. In the end, I only managed to sleep around 4 and wake at 6+ to prepare for work. So, I was pretty restless on thurs but during night time, Debbie needs my help in Photoshop so i promised to teach her.
Wasn’t able to change day so i sleep late again on thurs, restless again on friday. Friday, wasn’t very nice… because I wasn’t satisfied with a work I’m doing and I’m tired. Illustration for a website. The painting style. I didn’t like it but my boss wanted it that way… I don’t think that really suits but at that point of time, I have no idea how to improve it. Then again, who am I to speak? If he think that’s what he prefer, then I suppose I have no way to say no, because I have no valid reason for it. I wasn’t able to show him a better alternative and so, let it be. Before that, I was doing some NP *roll eye* stuffs and premiums that will never be used.
I think I’ve got bad attitude towards my boss near the end of the day (I do think he sensed that), after feeling pek cek over some stuffs, and running late for dinner with some friends. I don’t like to be late, and I don’t like people to be late as well. Probably, I also don’t understand why my boss like to talk to us near the knocking off time, and it’s a bit paiseh to interrupt his speech even when I had something on or purely mental block. Oh, I do think that my thinking is very different from my boss’s, and sometimes, it’s pointless to tell him what I think because if i say them too bluntly, it’s attitude problem. I know I can be very hurting in words, so most of the time, I do try to hide some, or just don’t talk about it. Then, that’s the way I am. My world is exaggerated, so are my emotions.
Nah, I’m actually fine now.
tsk.
